I tried not to think so much,
I wan to give up also end up hoi sei-ing myself.
I wan to help also end up hoi sei-ing myself.
im so tired. so tired to even care,
but i don't even know why im still caring..?
Others have already given up..
But what am i doing here...?
What am i doing blogging here..?
******
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
********
This is my current source of happiness.
Behind this thin layer of happiness,
there are so many issues,
which im the middle person getting stuck.
The best part is dat it has nothing got to do with me.
I don't even know why i even care...?
Im just trying to be happy.
2.5.09 was a happy day for me,
until it is ruined...
Now, where am i suppose to find more happiness?
Why can't you just fufill my wish?
I asked for nothing more....
Everytime i turn the pages of the book,
i read what happen to us, the fun and joy we once had,
i smiled. i really smiled. i laugh too. I could never be happier.
But after i close the book,
all issues just had to came in my mind.
I was thinking, 'how the heck did we even get close?'
I feel so hurt, so sad that i couldnt do a thing now.
i want to avoid thinking. i really do.
but i just duno how to be heartless.
i want to learn, but maybe it's not my nature to be heartless.
=(
Is it to much to ask just for a day of happiness..?
found a tunnel @ 11:15 PM