Even though i known Jayee for a short period of time,
but he sure knows how to be very positive.
I used to be like him, until something somehow drag me down..

He said the most comforting thing ever.
Thats why he is my bro =)

Good evening.
I just woke up.
I dreamt the impossible today.
I was in a house. I don't know why I was in House #123.
Joint house with #122.

While i was eating. I saw Ryan in 122.
I was like Holy Fuck why he is there.
And he is cooking, with a friend inside...

Suddenly Meg walked in to the house.
So i acted don't care and continue with my meal.
Ryan completly ignore me as if i never existed.
After Meg settled her stuff, she came over to #123.

She came and explained to me that Ryan smsed her asking to borrow her crib.
He misses #122 i suppose...
Haih.. How i wished this happened in real life..
I miss Ryan, where are you..?

I miss your not-so-bad-tempered attitude...Haih..

and


drinking alone...?

I miss us emoing + Heneikken..~

Do you know how sad i am...?
Do you know how much it hurts...?
Do you really know...?

I tried so hard, really hard not to think...
I really can't believe this is happening to me...
Sometimes i really want to cry out loud, but nobody's there...

I sat there, thinking and thinking...

thinking about the lil imperfect things that makes life perfect..

-------------------------------------------------

She wished all her memories were of the good times but the bad times kept coming back to haunt her. And nobody told them that this friendship was a short one. There were her happy days, when she would walk around in a daydream with nothing but a smile on her face, catching herself giggling as she walked down the street when a joke of their friendship would suddenly pop in her head. Then she would fall into days of deep dark depression; then finally build up the strength to be positive and to snap out of it for another few days. But the tiniest and simplest thing would trigger off her tears again. That was her routine. It was a tiring process and most of the time she couldnt be bothered battling with her mind. It was far stronger than her body.
Friends sometimes help her with her tears, other times making her laugh. But even in her laughter there was something missing. she never seemed to be truly happy, she just seemed to be passing the time waiting for something else. She was tired of just existing, she wanted to live. But what was the point of living when there was no life in it. These questions went through her mind over and over again till she reached the point of not wanting to wake up from her dreams that felt so real. Deep down, she knew it was normal to feel like this. She didn't particularly think she was losing her mind. She knew that people said that one day she would be happy again and that this feeling would just be a distant memory. It was letting go that was the hard part......=(

-------------------------------------

Those who know my pendrive well,
when they open it, they would come across a picture.
I was in class the other day,
and we were suppose to transfer the files for presentation.
The computer is connected to the projector~
Classmates open my pendrive and the whole class saw..

By Michelle Oon

Wow, time flies so fucking fast.
The last post was on February 20th by me also.
Now is April 4th 2009.

It's been like freaking 2 months
i've been mourning on this friendship?
Haha! what the fuck weih...

Hmmm, am i the only one dat come here?
Do any 3 of you visit here, besides me..?
I guess not, judging by the chatbox.. Sigh.
It's alrite, "yi jing ming bai.."

So anyway, HAHA! Was just thinking of the crazy days...
Not being Emo or whatsoever...
Trying to recall those happy memories...~ HAHA.
Too free nothing to do mah~
Assignment due in like 26 hours,
but, haha , recalling memories more important? Im crazy!

Haihz. Whatever lah~
HAHAHA. gtg now before i turn emo in 2 mins.

....

okay. im emo.

bye!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

Believe me or not,
this few days i really felt relaxed.
I haven feel emo for a few days ady.
And im proud of it.

It's because i learn how to be heartless.
I took up the "Like I Care" attitude~
I learn what i observed from Megdalyn.

How could someone be that strong, i asked myself.
I do what she did. And i never felt so relaxed.

Had a very distress talk with Ju-Yen,
keep insisting on this Emo4.
Being positive, i choose to let go.

Fay says that deep inside im still hurt,
but seriously, maybe abit, but not as much.
Because i choose to let go.

I don't give a fucking damn anymore.

I malas want to layan this friendship.
Right now, money is more important to me.
Such waste of time and money and strength.
Make all my joy go away. For fux la~
Memories enough ady la~
So what....~

Recently was mad at Meg at smtg.
Then, haha came across this blogskin.

Mad or no mad, its the past.
I malas want to layan all this shit ady.
Sien. Really Sien.